末日

 記得去年的大除夕晚,Carol,Wendy和我在London的一間卡啦OK房內等待2012的來臨,
那時我心想:哇!2012啊!世界末日之年!好刺激啊!

相信普遍的人可分兩類:
一類跟我和Carol一樣(不知她現在的想法有沒有變):
末日要來其實也不錯,那麼我們不用再上學,做功課,考試,憂慮將來的路要怎樣走...

(雖然這是很幼稚,逃避困難的想法,但老實說,有時生活的奔波勞碌,叫我很厭倦...)

 加上,我一向也是這樣想:在這二十一年的人生裡,
我已經遇過美麗的人和事,
享受過愛人與被愛,
我不怕身邊的一切被收回,
是因為我得到的已經不少了,
心滿意足。

另一類人,像Wendy一樣,想:
末日當然不好!我還沒做這個做那個,還有很多很美的風景要看,還有很美的事要經歷!

我同意每個人都應該抱著這個生活態度去過日子,這樣才能夠發現美,欣賞美和表現美。

 

但可能因我從小便讀聖經,覺得神說的世界末日有點令人期待,

因為屆時我們可以到天堂,那裡只有歡笑,沒有眼淚...

誰不想不用再哭?
誰想為同樣的人和事再受傷?
誰不想從此再沒有離別的痛苦?
我跟媽咪(虔誠基督徒)說過我這"看法",她卻只說末日不能給預測的...(其實也不太記得她怎樣答覆我),我們應把焦點放在珍惜神給我們的一切。

對了,珍 惜。

我想,珍惜才是<<末日理論>>的重點。
雖然末日論把某些人嚇瘋了

(媽上兩星期告訴我某少女因為信相沒日快到而自殺了的新聞 :< ),

但對我這些"不怕末日"的人來說,這謠言(如果它不是真的話)也不是完全負面的。

至少它(有效地)教我去珍惜。

當然,我一向也有提醒自己凡事都要珍惜,
那個老師那個家長沒有教導過學生孩子去珍惜人和事?

但末日的謠言卻令我體會要珍惜的 急 切 性 。

想將來,其實可以是一件可怕的事。

正如我在想畢業後的路應要怎麼走,單是想,便感到傍惶。

想美好的事也一樣,
有時我在想,將來一定要很成功很快樂,
但這想法令我感到今天的自己很失敗很愁苦。

這網誌的標題是"Live in the moment",

其實是用來提醒自己,要在當下找成功感,找快樂。
有夢想,對未來有憧憬是好的,
但太期待明天反而會令今天的我走失了。

更何況,明天不一定會來?



 

P/S

這幾個月來被旁人感化,令我由70%相信末日,下跌到今天的0.7%,

但當這傳說中的特別日子愈來愈近時,我也不能完全把這謠言忘掉。
明天便是十二月廿一日,我不禁會問一句"如果"
"如果這真是我們生存的最後一天,怎麼辦?"
昨晚躺在床上,很累但又睡不著,
我聯想到,如果末日是真的,或許以下其中一個情況會發生:
(其實我想知道末日理論是說我們會在廿一日滅亡,還是說我們也會渡過廿一日,在廿二日才滅亡??)

*現在假設前者是對`

1) 每個踏進廿一日12:00am的地區會陸續消失。

 

如果是這樣的話,我的家人愛人朋友便會比我早十三小時消失!(香港比這兒早十三小時嘛)
那麼我那十三小時便會是人生最痛苦的十三小時!我將會獨個兒呆呆地等待這兒的末日來臨...

 

2) 待地球上最後一個踏進廿一日12:00am的地區踏入這個時分時,全個世界才一併消失!

 

無論是1)或2),想起來倒讓我有點驚慌

(此刻在恥笑昔日自己說"我不怕死")

 

今早跟他談電話,轉眼間,便過了香港時間的廿一日12:00am,

假設1)給推翻了,他還安好的在電話的另一端跟我說話,沒有永遠消失!
感恩。
看來上天又給我多點時間去珍惜你了!
現在便要多待大半天,才可推翻(或證實)我的假設2)
如果末日始終沒來,
我一方面會為可以繼續享受這世界而感到興奮;
另一方面,我也要緊記這個末日傳聞教我的 珍惜 和 活在當下。
其實只要抱緊今天所擁有的去過日子,
活著的每分每刻都已經很美,
美得即使末日隨時到來,我也無憾,
至少,這世界,我有好好享受過。

 

把每天當成是末日來相愛　一分一秒都美到淚水掉下來

--- <<死了都要愛>>

 

就每天當沒明天　捉緊愛人過
將生活還給我　做每天必修功課
就算知歲月無多　無憾的生存過
在愛惜中離座　已經不錯

--- <<末日>>

Home Alone Day 10 + 7 days til Xmas!

 IPSY December glambag arrived my mailbox ytd!
ytd was such an exciting day :)
Love everything in this month's bag, minus the bright red lip gloss... (I don't think I could rock red lips >< although red lips are so in these years! I'd pass it to somebody else, but I don't know any friend who might like wearing red lip gloss...)

 

These are my toyssss :)))
However, this should be the last glambag I purchase in a while, because:

1) I've already got a lot of make up products within these 3 months, should use them up first, and I don't even get space to probably store them all... :P

2) Shipping fee is 50% of the price of a glambag alone!
don't like the fact that all the online shops I know only provide free shipping service within U.S., hey, Canada's not so far away from the State! why not ship to us for free as well ><?

 

Let me put on bold make up for fun :P

this loose shadow's a little messy to use, the first time I opened the cap, I got glitters all over my pants :SS
but the gold is super festive ^0^

Christmas's around the corner! exactly one week away! :)

Btw I pulled out this centerpiece from our basement
(this is a prize we got from a party)
Although there's only me in this house,

that can't stop me from decorating!

this is how it looks like :)

Caution: Scary Minnie is behind, staring at everything :S

lol

let me put on that lip gloss as well just to try out -_-

Tadah!

still not feeling red lips lol

>> that's my puppy son`given by LamLam <3<3<3

 

Dinner...

 Ingredients are partying here :3

 salmon fried rice :)
one of the cons of living on your own is that you have to eat certain type of food again & again until you finish it all.

This is the 5th piece (and the last piece!) of the salmon fillet we bought about a month ago lol

and the mushrooms are from the same pack I got for making chicken pasta soup :P

 

P/S (很長的P/S!)

今天跟他談電話,突然在說將來...
我說我將來不會想要孩子
養一隻貓我便滿足了 :3
我想要灰色英國短毛貓或布偶貓<3

Awww~

(琳琳也跟曾說她將來也不要生小孩,但要養狗xD)
然後我們在討論有小朋友在家的好與壞
(想不到這麼早便在談論這話題:P哈哈)
他突然說我很 沒 愛 心 T.T

又說我不喜歡自己的家庭 ._.
沒有啦~
只是不想製造煩惱給自己:(
說這話題時我突然變得好悲觀...

另外,剛剛把大半年前開的Qooza裡所有日記都由[公開]變做[私人]
我發覺那個網誌記得太多傷心事
幾乎沒有一篇文是一般心情至好心情時寫的,
所有文字也令人心碎。
要把這些文收起,

不要再給自己壞心情!!

無意中看到曾經打了這句:
2012年是繼2009年後,最傷心的一年。

其實說得不對!
在那個時候,哪有料到,我在往後這半年會遇到他呢?
他的存在令我變回樂觀的自己。
多謝你,如果沒了你,我想永久地刪去這一點也不令我回味的一年。
所以,過去真的會過去;快樂的日子總會回來:)


Home Alone Day 9 + 8 days til Xmas!

Today's fun thing to do for counting down to Christmas is...

 

studying!! woo-hoo! gotta prepare for the next semester!

 JUST KIDDING!!!

there's no way I could make myself pull out a textbook.

 

Though I think this holiday season is the best time to enjoy some books :D

I planned to place holds for books online, so I could pick them up when they arrive at the library.

But then I found out my library card has expired and I had to visit the library to re-activate it.

(don't you think life's always playing pranks on you in this way?

whenever you don't need Something, you keep seeing that Something laying around with no use; and whenever you need It, It either misteriously disappears or It somehow can't be used, i.e. my card has expired in this case) Come on!! No kidding please .\/.

Anyways, decided to pick up some novels from the library...(I have to do things right away whenever I feel like doing them, if I don't, I lose the motivation/interest very soon :S !)

Now is when I'm mad at myself for not practising driving before my aunt left .\/.

It should take 5 mins to drive there ._.

but now, I spent FOREVER waiting for the bus.

*ended up walking there (took 40 mins -v-), it's a good walk though.

 

I watched Elle's (one of my favourite youtubers ^^) glitterature series on Youtube before heading out to the library, she recommands books in that series. And I planned to borrow novels that she likes, since time is limited plus I read REAL SLOW (one of my weaknesses + one of the obstacles of studying efficiently :S fml). So it isn't a good idea to pick out books randomly.

 

I had a glimpse of the "Recommanded books" shelf, and immediately spotted out 5-6 books that Elle reviewed on!!! Perfect!

Didn't have to search for them (today's a luck day!) :D

then I went looking for some Disney movies, but didn't find any that interested me :/ (maybe I've finally grown up -v-.. no longer that passionate about cartoons... while a few months ago, I used to borrow a pile of Disney DVDs everytime I came to this library lol)

Later I realized that the novels I found are the 2nd books from the series, and I might not wanna read them without reading the previous books :/

(maybe I'm not that lucky today!)

 

Ended up borrowing:

There were so many more books I wanna read! but they're super heavy to carry home, and I won't be able to finish reading them anyways`

 

After that, I got into a drug-store nearby (biggest mistake of the day! lol)...

Warning: Mom & Dad if you are reading this, you might wanna stop right here lol

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(Are my parents gone? lol alright...)

 

Came out with a bagful of goodies :S

OK, I didn't go out-of-control. Was totally exaggerating.

I got little stuffs like cotton pads, nail polish remover... because they're on sale -.-

WHY SO MANY ITEMS ON SALE???

Blame on them!!

they shouldn't be on sale whenever I get into the store! lol

 

Everytime I decide whether or not I should buy something (with the majority being beauty products ._.)

I tell myself that I could give them to friends as little gifts/souvenirs, and this makes me feel less guilty (ultimate shopping excuse lol)

 

For example, I just got 2 nail polishes...

(have been wanting that rosy color for quite a long time >3<!)

I thought that I could share them with my sister! ...maybe she won't appreciate them that much due to her tomboyness lol although she claims that she's very girlish now.

(P/S the bottles have my babe's name on them <3)

What I'm MOST excited about...

are these cuties!!

OMGBBQWTH!!!

I finally found EOS lip balms in Canada!!

I've been looking for them everywhere! for more than a year!

and this drug store has them!!!

At first, I saw the standard EOS lip balms, and I was already super excited, but ended up telling myself that I already got two new lip balms the other day, so I shouldn't be getting one (took a while to persuade myself lol)

But right before I was set and about to pay, I saw this ALICE IN WONDERLAND set! It's the limited edition!

ARE YOU CEREAL!?!

I basically gravitate towards ANYTHING related to Disney

(okay, maybe today's really my lucky day lol)

 And and and... the packaging's so adorable, with tiny "Alice"s printed on it *v*

soooo pretty!

 

 So I told myself (as always), if I got it, I could give two lip balms to friends, and one for myself :)

My logic: I buy one thing, more than one people will be happy!

So I bought it. -_-

Oh... actually should I go back another day to buy a few more sets of this for my beloved HK friends as souvenirs?

I think I should... :P

 

Still very excited. Can't believe I just found EOS lip balms. OMGGGGG!!

Got some sushi for dinner :) I miss you salmon... >3<

 

Didn't walk home because those books were too heavy! I'd die if I did walk home lol

 Got on a bus, and the driver said I didn't have to pay lol

(due to some technical problems with a bus, all passangers had to get off and move to another bus... as compensation, we didn't have to pay for that ride ^0^ ho!ho!ho! lucky day!)

 

I guess I'll be having sushi + enjoying the books tonight :)

such a lovely day! thank God! I'm a lucky girl:3

 

P/S:

found an oversized Christmas-y PJ in the closet :)

 

P/S/2: skipped lunch today, was so occupied throughout the afternoon, didn't even feel hungry :)



Home Alone Day 8 + 9 days til Xmas!

下雨天。
原本外出的計劃告吹了。

早上不停看電視:
pick a puppy; home alone 2 (以前沒注意到這套原來是聖誕電影!這個時候看最適合不過xD), 阿森一族, iron chef...etc.
下午做了些家務..
吸塵抹地洗廁所 :)
我一向對[吸塵]這件家務有點保留,
話說初中某學期的英文考試其中一篇閱讀理解是說吸塵機是"放塵出來"多於"把塵吸進去" 0_0
來到這兒,每次姑媽請我替她吸塵,我便想起那篇文章
(但她以為是我懶惰的藉口,所以好像不太相信lol)
不是我不想吸,而是好像真的沒用哩 -_-
(現在比較流行用''蒸氣機''清潔地毯,吸塵機好快會被淘汰!)
但也許是"心理需要",還是吸一下塵吧。

Quick lunch:

吃了昨晚留下來的小雞腿 :)
已經5天沒有吃`白飯`xD

 

如今天沒幹什麼有趣的事,我會覺得浪費了這天

所以我拿出數個月前未完成的小勞作
(那時本來想弄這個給某朋友,但因為我太沒耐性的關係,弄了一會便半放棄了lol)

這是alice in wonderland電話套

我買的時候還以為很快會弄好

但原來Alice身上的每部份也要一針一線的縫起來 /v\

沒耐性的我決定...

用膠水 -_-

做了一半,又失了興趣lol

下一次"重拾興趣"時才繼續吧-3-...

(對美術真的又沒天份又沒耐性.. 囧)

 

 還是弄吃的最實際^0^:

晚上的湯...

BB版花膠 :3

(好像煮得太多...想找個人幫忙吃xD)

這個湯很有冬日感覺:D

 

繼續看電視! (我過的好像退休生活xD)
明天要踏出家門 :)


Home Alone Day 7 + 10 days til Xmas!

Since I no longer have to study (for the rest of the year only :/) what's better than doing fun stuffs and counting down to Christmas (by myself :/)??

 

Never tried chicken noodle soup before,

but since it's so popular on this side of the word (i.e. one of the ultimate comfort foods according to most people), I decided to try making my own version of chicken noodle soup :D
my recipe's completely different from the traditional one, because I could only work with what I had in the fridge so I didn't bother searching for recipes :3

 

 baked my drumsticks!
totally prefer chicken wings/drumsticks/legs over breasts ._.
(haven't had chicken for sooo long :>)
Look at that oil! should have taken the skins off, but they're irresistably good, ended up eating them all (wth._. please just have a look at your fat belly)
dripping oil ._. can't see it here though
 
replacing noodles with pasta :P
(took me a while to decide between the bow-shaped kind or this o_o)
 
cheated by using condensed soup lol

 
thumbs-up!!
I'm totally gonna make it again.
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spelling Your name!

that was a biased can of soup! no letters "E" & "R" at all!
so I had to make them -3-
(literally spent 10 minutes searching for letters lol
side-note: one advantage of being home alone is having the chance to do silly things like this without being judged lol)

 
 thank God your name is short.
if it was like "neuronito-pasghettio", it'd take me an hour, or I won't even do it  lmao

P/S something embarassing :///
I... mispelled your name at first lol
after successfully taking some pictures (camwhoring is not easy at all!),
I realized I couldn't even spell a 4-letters-word. wth. lol.

Lol. sorry baby.
my brain's totally non-functional after exams. (best excuse :P)

 

P/S/2 Let me think of more fun stuffs to do tomorrow :P